On Friday DSS brought Billy out to the house for a visit. his caseworker and the Guardian Ad Litem were also there and had a lot of questions for me. Billy spent most of the time with his Uncle Wayne so that we could talk.
I can't draw any conclusions from the conversation but I have a positive feeling at this point.
Margret is doing well now and has been upgraded from critical to fair condition. She is looking good and is rational. I no longer have fears about her recovery. It is just something that can't be rushed.
I have been so busy and confused with everything that has been happening that I have almost forgotten about grieving. I have just realized that I am no longer numb and I don't feel guilty about what has happened. I have done the best that I have been able to do an I am not responsible for the events leading to our situation in any way.
That alone is a great step forward and I am sleeping better and no longer feel exhausted.
With Love and Blsessings to All,
John
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Hi John,
ReplyDeleteThis is laura and I've read your blog. Yes. I've taken the emotional journey you're on. Don't ever second guess yourself about doing the right thing at the right time in the right way. Sometimes, when everything is so wrong, there is no way to do everything right. Your emotions will be a roller coaster for at least 18 months. You will experience the blackest of depressions and the heights of manic joy. I don't know if you've considered counseling, but I do recommend it. Sometimes, an objective outsider can calm the emotional storms. You and yours are in my prayers. gently,laura