We were sitting on the edge of my bed, R Myself and B in one giant hug. I had my arms around both of them and was holding them tightly. No one said a word for about half an hour and I just let love flow over the boys while I silently prayed for guidance and strength.
Verse 24 of Psalm 118 came to my mind (it is a verse that has been very important to me for many years.) This is the day the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it. What it tells me that we need to focus on today and that we have a choice as to how we will face it. We can choose to be positive or negative in our approach to it and that will affect all of our reactions to what is taking place.
How do you choose to rejoice when you have just found out that your Daughter and Granddaughter have been Murdered? For the sake of the boys I had to be positive and loving. This is not what I wanted to do but I felt that they needed all the peace and love that they could get at this time. I continued to hold them and pray for peace and strength (this was not a time for understanding) so that I could be the rock that they needed even though I felt like Jello.
After about half an hour B asked if they could watch TV and I told them that they could and they went to the living room to watch cartoons. I continued to sit on the edge of the bed and allowed myself to go numb for a couple of minutes.
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John.. thank you for visiting my blog.. I do believe the Lord led you... so I could follow you back to yours!
ReplyDeleteWHAT can I say... my mind is overwelmed and my heart broken for your sorrow...
Only God knows the path He has already laid down before you and He will light it for you step by step.
I will join those that are standing with you in prayer... May you find ,close to God's heart, that place of comfort and intimacy where the 'whys' are silenced in His love.